It's a BIG NEW YEAR!

Well, I haven't been blogging in a long, long, long time.... but I have been stalking other blogs along the way. :) So in true New Years fashion, my New Years Resolution is to start it up again. Not the stalking part, the chance to do MY blog again. For reals! I'm even going to do some back issues for the months that I didn't do anything and that I have a ton of pictures for. Just wait and see....

Drum roll please.....

And now for the amniocentesis results.... Drum roll please..... it's...... NORMAL! I am amazed! I can't believe it. With all the things this kid has put me through, and the 3 ultrasounds, and the amnio. itself, I'm so HAPPY! I'm in shock. Our last baby is going to be a healthy, baby.... get ready for it.... GIRL! I actually alluded to this fact in one of the previous posts, but I don't know if anyone caught it.

The second geneticist (Joan) who talked to me and David, was the one who broke the news to me (just a few minutes ago). They are still going to run a diagnostic test on something else with the amnio. stuff, but for now, there are no chromosomal problems with this kid! Trisomy 13 and 21 are 'OUT OF HERE'! Woo Hoo! Now if I can just get this kid to be under 9 pounds, that would be incredible! I'm so HAPPY! She's going to be fine. My factory parts are still working enough to get this kid here on this Earth! Yea!

Thank you for all of those who know, and prayed for us to be o.k. It was a real blessing for our family. And I'm especially grateful for my loving husband, David. Who has put up with me for almost 15 years of marriage, and for knowing/being with me for almost 18 years. I love you David, 'Siempre Jamas y un dia' Loosely translated to mean 'Forever and a Day'.

Emmy's 4th Birthday at Disneyland!

Well, for Emmy's 4th birthday, I decided that we were going to go to Disneyland. Since her pass was going to expire on that day, we wrangled Daddy to join us too. We dropped Joey off at Grandma Jeeps house to be babysat by Aunty Bridey, and off we went! I'll try to let the pictures do the talking with just a few captions. Enjoy! We certainly did!

Waiting in line for the tram

Emmy wanted to go on the Carousel first!

Next was the Peter Pan ride!

And after that was Dumbo!

Then we decided to go on to the Haunted Mansion.

Not really a good idea with a 4 year old. She didn't really like it.

Then we went to go to the Pirates of the Caribbean. That was a lot more fun!

Here's Emmy waving to the people on the ship that sails around the Tom Sawyers Island right

before we went on Pirates! You can even see someone waving back to her under the ropes!

Daddy really wanted to go on the Jungle Cruise next so off we went!

Here are the pirana attacking near the boat! But luckily they were only

man eating pirana, so women and children were safe. Whew!

Waiting in line for the Autopia Cars ride!

Mom was in the car behind this one, so one of the workers took this!

Here's Daddy looking back at Mommy with Emmy driving.

Here's Mommy's car!

Next came Buzz Lightyear and the Astro Blasters!

A brief pit-stop at the rest room and off to It's a Small World!

(which is in the background of the picture)
Emmy sees Tinkerbell and Peter Pan!

Now we are in Pixie Hollow, where Tinkerbell lives.

She wasn't home, so we took pictures in her garden!

Daddy and Emmy in the Big Giant leaves!

Mommy and Emmy in the Big Giant leaves!

Emmy under the Blue Bells!

Daddy trying to eat the little Emmy Pixie!

On the way out of Pixie Hollow, Emmy-Tinkerbell decided to try and fly!

Here she is spreading her wings!

And she's off!

Emmy and Daddy dancing before dinner.

Emmy and her dancing moves!

Just before we left Disneyland!

Emmy sacked out on Daddy's lap on the tram ride to the parking lot.

As you can tell, she got a Tinkerbell doll, a Tinkerbell Polly-pocket

sized doll (that mom is holding), along with a Tinkerbell coloring book.

She is my little Emmy-Tinkerbell girl! Happy 4th Birthday Emmy!

I hope it was a lot of fun!

Emmy in the stroller on the way to our parking spot.

I thought that it was very poetic the we parked at Goofy 4E.

It must have been fate with Emmy turning 4 on this very day!

THE END TO A WONDERFUL DAY!

Not as bad as I thought....

Well, I had the big scary needle done yesterday. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I was only uncomfortable for a few moments, and when the needle went in, it kinda zinged over to the left with some pain, but not too bad. I didn't want to watch it go in, so I just looked at David the whole time. He saw it go in on the monitor and said it was really weird.

So onto some good news... The original genetics counselor talked about Trisomy 13. THIS counselor started talking about Trisomy 21. So I got a little confused.... I thought that this kid was going to have 13 not 21? What the heck?

So I started crying, and I think that the counselor thought that I was going to get hysterical, but actually I was crying because Trisomy 21 is WAY better than Trisomy 13. To have a little Down Syndrome baby is definitely better than having a baby that might die the moment I give birth to her. So I calmed down enough for the counselor to continue, and get through all of the stuff and info. that I needed for the amniocentesis. We finished up and David and I headed to the ultrasound area for the amnio. They (the lab tech. and the Doctor) took lots for pictures for measurements, but the baby wasn't really cooperating so I have another, what they call, 'Level 2' ultrasound in a week and a half, on June 4th. I hope to get the results of the amnio. around the 8th or 9th of June. So I'm in limbo for awhile more, but just to know that my little baby might be able to stick around on this Earth for a bit longer is fantastic news. I'll update in a few days about Emmy's birthday trip to Disneyland. It was so much fun! And she got a bunch of Tinkerbell presents too.

The BIG SCARY NEEDLE...

Well, I'm scheduled for the big scary needle on Tuesday, May 25th. My appointment is in the morning, and I'm NOT supposed to carry anything over 10-15 pounds the rest of the day, which means no chasing the little toddler boy or picking up the little toddler boy and giving him a diaper change. I also have to be a good little zombie girl, so I can't do ANYTHING except eat, go to the bathroom and take a lot of naps. Sounds like a fun day, with the exception of the big scary needle part. David will be with me, and the 2 older kids will be in school, and the 2 younger kids will be watched by my Sis-in-law Bridey while we are at the appointment. It's going to be an interesting day.

This kid has to be an acrobat...

I swear that this kid is trying to kill me from the inside-out. O.k., not really, but it sure does feel like it sometimes. I cannot DO anything. All I feel is tired. Just doing a load of laundry is a trial, or even doing the dishes. This baby just saps ALL of my energy. I feel like I'm lucky if I can get the 2 younger one's dressed and fed in the morning. Not to mention getting the other 2 out the door with clothes on for school, and fed, and have a lunch packed.

It seems like I have more energy when I wake up, but after about an hour or so I'm tired. And then the baby starts up. The one that isn't even 5 inches long yet. How can someone so tiny, be so rambunctious? I don't know. This baby is just... so.... so... I don't even know. I hope he/she is going to be alright in the long run. I'm still waiting to do the next blood test, and schedule the amniocentesis. Woo Hoo! A big long needle stuck into my stomach. And no anesthetic! Just Great! Fun times are in store for me.

All American Boy!

This kid cracks me up sometimes!

Joey putting on funny glasses!

Joey making a funny face!

So we wait....

Well, I still have to take the dreaded needle test (I have no idea when that will be), and I'm going to take another blood test on Friday, May 21st, which also happens to be my next baby appointment. I have no idea when the results will be back for that blood test. So far, I've only freaked-out on the day of the last post. I'm trying to be calm, and just go with the flow. We'll see if I can still make it work.

Onto the next adventure... I will be taking Emmy to Disneyland for her 4th birthday on May 20th. Daddy will accompany us too. I'm just not sure if we will be taking Joey. He would probably have lots of fun too, but it is Emmy's day, so I just have to wait until next week to decide. I expect to have lots of fun, and I will post some pictures too.

What do I do.... FREAK-OUT or WAIT?

Well, by the title of this post, you are probably wondering what I have to FREAK-OUT about, Right? Well, I have been reading a blog about a little girl named Davy Jean. Not sure on the pronunciation of Davy, but such a cute girl! Anyway, her mom (Ruth) used to be in our Ward at church and she wrote on her blog about the problems that she has had with her pregnancy.

Long story short, I've been having problems with this pregnancy that I'm in right now, and I had problems this past Dec. '09 with a miscarriage right before Christmas. Ever since I started reading Ruth's blog in late Feb., I've just had this feeling about THIS pregnancy. That something's wrong, or going to go wrong. It felt wonderful to be pregnant again (although I was supposed to wait 2 more months), but it also felt OFF. And it still does. Know what I mean? Or maybe you don't....

Anyway, I just found out that the baby might have Trisomy 13. Huh? What is Trisomy 13 you ask? Well, it's a chromosomal disorder is which there is an extra chromosome in the 13th chromosome. (Try saying that sentence 3 times fast!) The usual one that everyone hears about is Trisomy 21 or more commonly referred to as Down's Syndrome. This one is different. This one is a rare type. There aren't a lot of people with it. Not living anyway. And there you have it. That's what I'm freaking-out about! My little baby that I'm supposed to have on November 2, 2010 just might not survive. Oh she/he might survive for a few seconds, minutes or even a few months. Apparently they forget how to breath, or have several birth defects that makes their life a hard one, along with a host of other things. That's the part that I can't handle. I want him/her to live for years, but with this Trisomy 13 looming over me, I'm not sure how long I will have with this little baby. Researching this Trisomy 13 is just nerve wracking!

Now, this might all be for naught. As I said before, the baby MIGHT have this disorder (but I'm pretty sure its got something). I've already had a Fetal Nuchal Translucency exam, which is an early Ultrasound and measures the spaces between the baby's spinal column and spinal fluid. I still have to take another blood test, get the results, and maybe even get an amniocentesis done too (and I probably will just to make me feel better, I just don't like the fact that I have to have a needle put down into my stomach to get some baby fluid, Yuck!) all within the next 4-5 weeks. This is all done to make sure that the baby is going to be alright. So, if I freak-out now, maybe I won't freak-out so much later? I'm not sure. I still might be freaking-out throughout this whole pregnancy just to keep my sanity. Crying in the middle of the day is O.K. right?

Just wondering....